What was the question?

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"Are you okay?"

If that's your question....then my answer is No.

Absolutely No.

I am feeling fully disgusted. I am miserable and full of guilt.
I am sick of things and sick of being myself.

I can't help questioning myself what's wrong with me?

And answer myself again: everything.

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